All Apologies

Songwriter: Kurt Cobain
Album: In Utero (1993)

I think the song means what most people think it does. It's Kurt Cobain's first suicide note and that's what makes this song spectacular.

What else should I be
All apologies
What else could I say
Everyone is gay
What else could I write
I don't have the right
What else should I be
All apologies

In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
I'm married
Buried

I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqua sea foam shame
Sunburn with freeze burn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy

In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married, maried, maried!
Buried!
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are

All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are

All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are

All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are

I heard that in the few first lines he is literally trying to say that everyone has gay feelings deep inside them. That's pretty longshot, but, hey, anything's possible. Then he says he doesn't feel the right to write. In that time he said that he can't write songs anymore. Later he says that he wishes he is easily amused. That's his response to the music of the time, which was popular, but he didn't like it. Obviously, in the sun he feels as one is then about afterlife (where he feels as one) and buried...well, yes, buried.

Audio:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=igBmW8IhMlI
MTV Unplugged official video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aWmkuH1k7uA
Live At Reading - official video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m0drC8qVMRk
Live & Loud: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j45cnkRgfqE
Lorde version from the NIRVANA Rock'n'Roll Hall of Fame Induction ceremony:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6K2DBD9TLyY